Monday, August 31, 2009

nom nom nom

how nice does that picture look! mann i cant wait for summer but so much work to be done before then! ive decided to become a polo-pechetarian which means no meat but seafood and chicken. ive had a good day i did my two classes of ballet and throughout the day i have a slice of wholemeal toast with peanut butter, a bowl of sultana bran and some tuna. (i hope i dont trigger anybody with this post, if you think itll trigger you stop now! but its good food)
anyway we went to the shops aswell and i got gum, a big bottle of water, frozen baby carrots, celery, whole meal bread, jello, and low fat pretzels. i feel so good today coz im not even hungry. and its good coz a new friend of mine wants to diet too so when we feel hungry we just sit together and talk about losing weight, its so much easier to have a friend dieting aswell. i mean i dont call what im doing dieting but thats what she calls it and im fine with that. next week we wanna do the rainbow diet ^__^ although some of the foods are like ugh and we'll just skip a few out haha i mean i wouldnt eat like a plain onion : oh i also bought a pack of 30% less sugar starburst lollies because ive been feeling so strong i wanted to put them in my room to make me feel like i CAN do this :) also that girl wont let me borrow the dress for the party D: stupid cow but she said i could maybe borrow it another time. ugh ill have nothing to wear.
and before i go, updating this everyday feels so good for me. its like a food journel and if you eat something bad ill have to write it down here so thankyou to you reading :)
peaceee out guys (L)

Sunday, August 30, 2009

add on to that

the girl with the black dress, i dont know these people but thats the dress im borrowing off my friend, how cute is it!
but yeah.... keep dreaming
this is gonna require a week of strict calorie restrictions then a week of fasting
and i just bought an ana bracelet off ebay and hopefully thatll help me keep strong in my journey.
also im a very sporty person and i play ALOT of sports which is good but i also do an extra P.E. class at school which is heaps brutal and if i fast the moment i do exercise i just black out
does anybody have any ways of helping me with this? and no i dont wanna eat a cube of cheese, i hate cheese haha
and also a big ILOVEYOU to my first ever commenter you know who you are
thanks lovelies and soon when i can be bothered ill upload HEAPS of thinspo pictures i have so many, so keep posted fraaans (L)

whoever it is out there

i dont actually know if anybodys come across my blog yet

when you read this let me know ;)

i dont mind if nobodys reading it yet coz i think just writing in itself is helping me out

i made it through the week

and the dramatic change in my stomach was amazing :)

i have two weeks until this amazing party

and im borrowing my friends dress

she looks shit in it haha so i wanna have a really good stomach that doesnt stick out like a pregnant ladies

i think that seeing ive gotten through this week i can keep it up

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

pretty good

so ive decided that ill eat a medium breakfast and then not eat anything until dinner unlless im not home then ill have nothing
and its been going pretty well actually
im hardly hungry during the day and my stomach has already shrunk!!!
after a week of this im gonna start the ABC diet so next monday i'll start
i cant wait
in my diary ive pre organised each day with different choices so i can remember how many calories ive eaten
i know im new to this blogging, but somebody that would like to start the abc diet with me?

peace out.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

a little inspiration to start us off

the first day was easy,
the time just flew by
no hunger or pain
but you didnt know why

the second day was good
you told a few lies
you hid food in your room
then went to exercise

the third day was harder
unsure of yourself
you passed out twice
trying to hold onto a shelf

you cant bring yourself to eat
and you dont know why
some days you wish you could
and even the guilt of that makes you cry

on the fourth day
you can hardly awake
your body tries to go on
but you just tremble and shake

the fourth day goes on
your feeling very weak
you want to talk to people
but its too tiring to speak

your parents dont believe you
you think its all a lie
youve denied them the truth
and now you might die

you feel no hunger
this is no fluke
you have another cigarette
and begin to puke

the acid is hard
stripping your throat
your only 83 pounds
the scale is your suicide note

you feel dizzy and confused
your body aching in pain
you know you should eat
and still you refrain

your parents know now
but theyd never tell
your little brother watches
his big sister go through hell

you know you need help
but you worry about your weight
you dont think its bad enough
but when it is it'll be too late

the fourth day of fasting
no liquids since the third
because you fear water weight now
youre concerned hope is lost and youll never be cured....

i didnt write this myself but i find it very inspirational
i hope it helps whoever here has read my blog :)

i welcome myself

i want to share my journey to be thin with more people. i know i like to read about the girls that go through the same stuff that i do. i want to help with my tips and tricks. and i believe that if i write on here than itll help me. when i show the stats i know i havent been very small but im also very tall and muscular. im a ballet and jazz dancer although i would be better if i was smaller. i play soccer and basketball :)

hw-62 kilos/136.4 pounds
lw-53 kilos/116.6 pounds
cw-61 kilos/134.2 pounds

thats so gross /vomits
im not bulimic though i never have been and i doubt i ever will
you never know though

i just finished the 40 hour famine and that was hard
i want to do it every weekend
what i read was that fasting helps the body unaware to what people against starving says. because fasting is not starving.